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#Eric – Questions go unanswered

THIS BLOG IS FAR FROM DEAD – READ COMMENTS FOR UPDATES & SCROLL DOWN FOR NEW SCREENCAPS (02 May 2010)

The following is information I received a while ago regarding the #Eric campaign:

I tracked the IP address (removed due to censorship) for “Storey Dreams Foundation” which is actually lifegiversfoundation.org – it is registered under domainsbyproxy.com, a service specifically used to “hide” any registrant details – in other words, a way to be anonymous. The statistics of the site are so little, that it barely has any info. In the last three months, 7.1% have visited the site through a search engine (which is only Veronica De La Cruz’s site). Also, it should be mentioned that this not a foundation that Veronica turned to, she made the foundation and from my perspective, it would seem that the money went to her rather than to any registered charity. Top keywords used to search this site: (in this order)
lifegiver project
eric de la cruz
tim storey nin
“eric de la cruz (note: there is no quotation at the end of this)
“storey dreams foundation”
“tim storey” “trent reznor”
lifegiver

Daily percentage of traffic is less than 0.00002% of all traffic, ranking the site as # 4,268,872. AND…
it appears that the site is only registered for one year and it was created 15 May 09.

Registered through: GoDaddy.com, Inc. (http://www.godaddy.com)
Domain Name: LIFEGIVERSFOUNDATION.ORG
Created on: 15-May-09
Expires on: 15-May-10
Last Updated on: 14-May-09

I don’t know if that clears anything up for you regarding where the donated money went to…to me sounds like Veronica has it. Also, it should be noted that I have a screen shot that suggests that the donation is tax-exempt

Kind of seems fishy in all, considering has anyone received a receipt for their donation? How badly does it hurt those who donated when the family used the transplant funds to pay for Eric’s funeral? How would NINtards react to that info when they were told by TrentGod that the money would be going to others who are in of a transplant?…sheeple! Jeesh!

Personally I think this raises more questions than it answers. Questions which have been asked directly to Veronica and duly ignored.

Why Veronica not clarifying and answering the questions posed to her? Surely as a journalist she can see why this is of public interest and should be the first to want and practice “transparency” of information. Were there receipts issued to those who donated? How come no one seems to be able to produce a screecap of such receipts? Why contract the services/help of a marketing company director? Why was it implied that the donations would be tax exempt and doesn’t appear to be so? What was the total amount of donations? How much of it was spent on Eric during his life? Are there receipts/accounts? If so, why are these not being made public? How much of the money was spent on his funeral? How much of it is still left (if any)? Why is the money which is claimed to be left from caring for Eric being turned over to a Beverly Hills televangelist? Is it fair on those who donated and aren’t religious to have their money now used by what some have described as “fundamentalist Christians”? Who approached saint Trent Reznor and asked for his backing? What is his actual involvement with the fund? Has he ever met any of the De La Cruz? Did he know or bother to visit Eric? Questions questions and more questions…and no forthcoming answers

Last but by no means least, let it be known to the readers and to Mr.Reznor that this blog wasnt going to be published but due to the relentless TRolling & the free publicity these NINtards created lately, it would be a shame not to spin it my way. So again, Thanks to the NINtarded psychofans for all the threats & harassement…I carry on BECAUSE of YOU

UPDATE -
To see Eric`s obituary click HERE
Lifetime of anti-rejection meds post transplant can exceed the surgery cost-why not put unused funds into a trust for that-why Tim Storey? Why not give the money to National Transplant Assistance Fund?
For further updates please read comments

NOTE – I have been asked what is my angle and what I hope to achieve with this blog. The answer is simple: I want transparency, answers to the questions.

I had, have and will always have a problem with rich people helping other rich people with poor people`s money

UPDATE 03 Sept

Seems Tim Storey travels a lot and in style

UPDATE 6 Sept – Tweets to Veronica

tweets to Veronica Sept 6

UPDATE 14 Sept – Screencap from The insider forum

UPDATE 15 Sept – very interesting

more interesting info

UPDATE 11/01/10 VIA Wren1123 on http://wavegoodbye.foren-city.de/viewtopic.php?p=1962#1962 – Sure smells fishy to me

This might not mean anything, but I just noticed: http://veronicadelacruzonline.com/ domain expired 12-11-09 on GoDaddy.com
http://www.lifegiversfoundation.org/ domain is registered till 5-15-10 also from GoDaddy.com but hasn’t been updated since 9-9-09.
http://blog.weloveeric.com/ Other than linking the Glamour Mag(Nov. issue) to the site the most recent entry is 9-1-09. Something is so not Kosher here. I check in on these sites every couple of months now. I just would have thought with all the healthcare reform debate over the holidays more would have been done. Hell I expected at least some new entry because most charities ramp up their efforts during the holiday season.

Trent Reznor & The Vanishing RT

Oh dear oh dear…Our “champ” has done it AGAIN.

After days TRolling on Twitter using several accounts, Trent Reznor went on his own website and posted yet another long-winded rant about how misunderstood he is and how I am the sole reason for his all problems. Yes, he has actually named me as the reason he left Twitter…no mention that Twitter approached him and asked him to kindly tone down and in true prima donna style he throws a hissy fit and deletes his account.

So, when he isn’t moaning to Rolling Stone and getting bashed by ex-fans for his now notorious foot-in-mouth suicide tips for cutters, our drama queen is playing the victim to his NINtards. Anyway, I won’t post a link to his rant because I refuse to give his website any airtime.

Trent_Reznor 07/28/09 10:23 AM

Bla bla bla boring bla…..

Twitter: Yes, I deleted my account and I’ll explain why since somehow someone apparently thinks this is newsworthy.
Twitter seemed like an interesting way to quickly reach a large number of people, and people that seem to exist outside of the nin.com world of fans. For a while, I found it useful to read replies and get a sense of what people are thinking / saying, and this worked well for a while. As I’ve mentioned in other letters, the key to understanding your audience / fan-base is to engage them and understand them. The results of me doing this with NIN include the way we sell tickets on nin.com, the way we’ve distributed the last records, the multitracks available for free download for you to remix, the Creative Commons licensing, the open camera / recording policy for live shows, no fan-club fees, the tour music samplers, the open design of nin.com, etc etc etc. I could keep going because pretty much everything we’ve been doing with NIN lately has been based upon what you as an audience think would be a cool way to do it.
Most of these policies and approaches have nothing to do with Twitter, but it was another tool to see what people think about things and get feedback.
Then… around the time news broke of my engagement, a faction of troublemakers showed up whose sole intent was to disrupt, harass, insult and incite. Let me explain to you why simply blocking on Twitter was not a solution. If you are interested in someone on Twitter, you can follow their updates. I’ve noticed however many people want to see the replies that user gets to have a sense of a thread of information / thoughts. You do this by searching the user’s name you’re interested in. When I started getting relentlessly reply spammed by these few individuals with harassment ranging from hoping I overdose to calling my fiancee racist slurs hundreds of times a day, YES – I could (and did) block them, but everyone else reading my replies sees ALL of that nonsense. So, I am providing a platform for this rubbish to be broadcast to my fanbase, which I am not going to participate in. I discussed this with some friends at Twitter who acknowledged the problem with a “yeah, um, we’re thinking about doing something about that – people are complaining” response. Not good enough. As I’ve said, Twitter’s interests lie in getting the most users and hype possible, then cash in for the big sale – and fair enough, they’ve come up with an interesting product.
Last night, I had the pleasure of trying to explain this message to an understandably upset Veronica De La Cruz:
@AndreaUrbanFox someone got balls at last! Hey, can I have some of that #Eric money? The dude’s dead, he doesn’t need it lol
Really?
She saw this message because anything with the #Eric hashtag appears on weloveeric.com. I tried to explain to her this person is just a lonely, obsessed, delusional, bitter “fan” who recently posted how the celebrity she’d most like to date is ME. She spends countless hours a day obsessing over me, my fiancee and NIN resorting to ANYTHING for attention. In a reasonably moderated community, these people can be made to vanish – on Twitter, it’s a free-for-all – hence they flock there. It depresses me to think my art and life’s work can attract this kind of scum, and trying to explain to Veronica why someone would stoop to that level of ignorance for attention – and it’s someone that because of me is in her world causing her pain… well, it sucks. If that was your intention you trolling, cowardly pigs – you’ve succeeded.

Do note how His Holiness fails to mention it was an RT (ReTweet) which means I was just reposting what someone else said AND it was already an RT by yet another person. How convenient huh? Even more convenient is that he also fails to mention the said RT was dropped by HIM using HIS own TRolling account. How can one be sure it is his account? Cos a DM (Direct Message) with a bit. link was sent to him and the dumbass clicked on it which led straight to him, in France at the time.

So, what better way to get back at me then to summon his NINtarded minions and try to entice them AGAIN to go fight his fights for him. Yes, Reznor we see through you and now your fans are starting to see too

Also note how he uses Veronica…pull those heart strings why don’t you? We all know he used the Eric thing to take attention off his shambolic engagement to someone he “picked up” from Twitter and after 2 weeks proposed to. Why not use the same strategy now?

Let me be clear about something here, I do NOT apologize for asking to see the accounts for the Eric fund (still not made public) and for questioning where the rest of it is going. There have been a lot more direct questions asked by others such as why donations ($1,200) to the #Eric Fund through NIN are NOT tax deductable and why not have that explained before soliciting donations…but as it wasn’t me asking no reason for TR to get upset huh?

Lets face it, if I`m obsessed by TR as he seems to think I am, the same can be said for him who still follows me on Blip.fm, still reads my tweets and blogs….

Final note from me to Trent Reznor HERE

The vanishing RT

Trent Reznor waves Twitter goodbye, again – The Full Story (updated)

It is with a heavy heart and a guilt ridden conscience that I have to inform my readers that Trent Reznor and his fiancé Mariqueen have deleted their public accounts on Twitter on July 17th.

HA! Had you going there! Although it’s true that both have deleted their accounts, my heart is as light as a feather and my conscience hasn’t stopped me having a great night sleep. Thanks very much!

I’m not saying I’m happy it happened. Their accounts were of great value. Reznor provided us with hours of amusement. It was like watching a train crash unfolding in slow motion. While Mariqueen gave us an insight into how flakey, superficial and cheap her life is. So yes, I will miss them. I will miss Reznor`s ill advised rants and outbursts as I will miss Mariqueen`s pre-pubescent and grammatically flawed tweets.

To say, like some are already saying, that they quitted Twitter because of my blogs is giving me too much credit. As much as I appreciate being given such credit, one cannot forget those who also questioned Reznor`s motives and attitudes which ultimately led to his Twitter demise. How can one forget Fred Garrett (of the #fuckfred fame) with his blogs which are now legendary? How can one forget my followers on Twitter for their support and loyalty? My girls (too many to mention by name) who havent just been supportive but have also been caring and gave me their time, loyalty and lots of laughs? How can one forget all those, who from behind the scenes provided me with information and photos? Each and every one of you stars! I thank you all.

Still on the point of “who to crucify” for Reznor`s Twitter departure, look no further than Reznor himself. Don’t be naïve (or stupid) to think it was a hand-full of “trolls” that led a grown up man to crash and burn. Reznor has been online his entire career. He used it, manipulated it and made a pretty good living out of it. People “trolling” him, shouting at him, verbally abusing him should therefore have no impact on him. Why pick on and blame me (and a few others)? Because we didn’t actually “troll” him. We asked questions. We asked difficult questions. We were those “pesky kids” that wouldn’t let go until we got proper answers. Answers which were never forthcoming.

In my case, this whole thing started back in March when I posted a blog on Myspace about ticket pricing for gigs and festivals. You can read that blog HERE, just gotta scroll down. At the time I was not only asking/pressing Reznor for answers regarding this issue. I did direct the same question to many others in the music biz. However, Reznor was the only one who took my questions personally and went on the defensive with me. Why so pissy? Why not just answer the questions? Those questions rang alarm bells. Could have Reznor got all pissy because I was on to something? I asked him that and from that point on I was blocked. I WAS on to something….

Almost 3 months went by. I had just about dropped the whole ticket price fixing issue when I read/saw somewhere he was engaged to Mariqueen. If Twitter wasn’t so damn impossible to scroll back on posted tweets, I did even congratulate him, but that is irrelevant. What is relevant is that I was having a chat with a mate on twitter (note-rebelrebel666 who was duly banned from Twitter at Reznor`s request, or so I’m led to believe) about Reznor`s sudden engagement to someone half his age and of dubious personal and professional credentials when I jokingly said I thought she looked like a ladyboy. Which in my humble opinion she does! Anyway, little did I know that Reznor still stalked my page and read my tweets. His retaliation wasn’t clear to me until I started to get abusive and downright vicious NIN psychofans trolling me. As we all now know, Reznor said and I quote: “@andreaurbanfox you know what sucks, YOU”. Ha! I couldn’t help myself, it was too easy, and so I replied: “I suck and swallow. How about you? Any cock action lately of just Mariqueens?” I thought and still think it was a damn good reply and it still tickles me. The problem is that at the time Reznor had ½ million followers. Most of which are angry, depressed, emo, starry eyes, arse licking fans who took upon themselves to “protect” their 45yr old idol from me. The backlash of my comment/reply is well documented in mine and Fred Garrett’s blogs.

Bla bla bla time went on…Reznor carried on making a fool of himself on Twitter. Saying how mellowed out and in love he was just to turn around and rant about this and that, diss the odd fan or celeb….the usual. Then came the Eric story. At the time I was pretty pissy with all the NIN psychofans that religiously pestered me and was also very concerned about the floods in Brazil. I must admit I approached Reznor a bit “all guns blazing” and asked him why help 1 individual whose chances were minimal and not help ½ million displaced and starving people in Brazil. Again, this part of the story is well documented. His reaction was the usual name calling so typical to him (and his sheeply). This time I took this and turned to my advantage as it did help raise awareness of the problems I was then actively campaigning for. I even thanked him for his outburst on my blog on Myspace titled “Act Now” HERE.

Then something came to light. Actually, make that someone. Andrea Mulrain, Reznor`s ex-sweetheart approached me. She had a lot to say. Most of which remains private but one of her many emails to me was blogged on Myspace, but can be seen HERE, because I thought it was of public interest and necessary to make clear to his fans that he was/is NOT the philanthropist he claims to be. At the time I raised many questions regarding his motives for helping Eric and that can be found HERE.

True to form, nothing was answered. All I got was more ranting and raving from him. Then came the “I’m quitting Twitter” bluff and the long winded rant he posted at NIN.com blaming “plump & ugly” Metalsludge users for his decision. Again, there he was playing the victim and manipulating his minions. Totally unable to take responsibility for his actions. Unfortunately it backfired on him big time! His lack of eloquence topped with his lack of humanity made him, apart from alienating his more hefty fans, he went on to give suicide advice to his fans (and we know that if they aren’t emo, they are pretty fucked up and/or angry fanbase). The backlash of that can be seen HERE and I also wrote a parody of it which you can see HERE.

We carried on antagonizing each other, playground style. Oh! The joyous days of puerile bunter! I shall always remember those fondly!

Let us go back to the oh-so-evil blogs. In mid June I went to Southside festival. No to just see NIN. I was actually more interested in seeing Nick Cave, Pixies, Fleet Foxes etc. But it so happened NIN was the headlining act on Saturday night. As I was going to write about the festival, I couldn’t help but write about NIN. You can read that review HERE. And yes, I did enjoy their gig. I actually thought I wasn’t going to because of my now tainted view of the utterly flawed singer (I use the word singer loosely). I DID see him drinking of what looked to be a can of beer. I DID see him slip and almost fall onstage. I DID think his performance was a let down. I can’t be blamed for what I saw and the conclusions I came to after the gig. I also reviewed Mew & NIN Luxembourg gig HERE.

So now we are at the stage where/when apart from Reznor reading my blogs/tweets I also had Mariqueendoing the very same. It is well known that many times she had a “dig” at me via Twitter but to be honest by this stage I couldn’t care less and was fully openly saying what I thought of her, him, their relationship, his behavior, the Eric story etc. I didn’t even engage in banter with her because in true honesty her ghetto lingo topped with the poor grasp of the English language meant most of her stuff was painful to read, let alone reply to.

One thing Reznor never accounted for was the fact that I am the best of friends but the worse of enemies. Don’t piss me off and expect me to drop it and let go. He also didn’t account for people from his past (and present) circle of friends were feeding me information about him. And for his annoyance and the disbelief of his more psychotic fans, I was not suspended from either Twitter or WordPress (despite their string of complaints) because all I was/am saying is MY understanding based on information which is either already in the public domain or information which was given to me and duly verified. I’m also pretty sure the networks in question here are ok with the amount of traffic and publicity all this has generated. Not being a cynic here but without these online dramas the internet would be boring and lame.

We now move on to the 4th of July. Not because it’s just “lets blow shit up” day in the USA but it’s when Eric died. Yes it was sad that after the entire circus created around him, he didn’t manage to pull through. Unexpected? No it wasn’t. He never even got the heart transplant he needed. He was never well enough. At least that was the official story and we shall never know if it’s the truth or not.

With that in mind I DID tweet Eric’s sister Veronica. I simply said it was bad news but I asked what would happen to the donated money. Would it be returned to the donors or would it go to a worthy cause. Simple. No accusations. No pestering for full accounts (which I have done since but no one is able or willing to supply them). Anyway, it seems I wasn’t the only person with questions regarding the Eric fund and the accounts for medical expenses. How this other person worded her question to Veronica I don’t know. All I know is that at this point, our uncapped crusader Reznor either read my tweet or was alerted of it and went on a verbal rampage calling me and this other girl, and I quote:” uniformed c*nts”. I sure want wearing a uniform at the time so I didn’t take offence to that. I was a bit taken aback by him calling me a pig knowing very well I’m Jewish therefore making clear his anti-Semitism. I duly went on to blog about this and you can read that HERE.

What followed was the usual trolling with the added threat from NIN psychofans as well as the “Eric’s Twitter army” on the defensive. I say, for a bunch of Born Again Christians with so much love in their hearts they don’t half like swearing and bashing. But hey, their motives for donating can also be questioned as most of them did so because of their devotion to Trent Reznor, not because they genuinely cared who the feck Eric was. So that you know, up to this day no one has produced any accounts nor has any official statement has been made regarding the accounts or the whereabouts of the remaining donated money. Silence is only golden in certain situations (the one that went straight over Reznor`s head are a good example) but in this instance the less open they are about this, the more they open themselves to speculation.

Bla bla bla more playground antics and banter from both sides….more questions being asked about Reznor`s now apparent meltdown…..bla bla bla NIN touring Europe and Reznor still making a fool of himself (read about it HERE)…bla bla bla Mariqueen posts picture of her panties online…..bla bla bla London O2 gig….. That ROFL worthy photo of an overweight Reznor falling onstage (HERE) and now this. Both jokers are gone from Twitter…err….their public accounts are but their private accounts ( @noise_floor & @NEEUQIRAM )remain which means that this story is far from over…..I can predict both will be lurking around, reading our stuff as usual. Needless to say we are due an influx of newly open accounts used exclusively to troll those, like myself, got a brain, a voice and it isn’t scared to use either.

We are now up to date with this story….until his next move that is

UPDATE 1

Hours after Trent Reznor waves Twitter goodbye…

…after closing @trent_reznor (and @mariqueen) account on Twitter the tickets for the last (last?) NIN gigs go on sale. Hmm…

Think about it. Not the first time Reznor uses some drama before announcing something which needed all his minions attention. Clever PR. He knows his minions lap it up like the little sheeply they are.

A few hours later his not so private account @noise_floor (and @neeuqiram ) is also closed. At this point one is lead to believe he/they actually meant the whole privacy stuff.

But then along came THIS……

ROFLMFAO, again!!

A matter of life and death

This is a delicate subject. Maybe one that I, little Miss Insensitive, shouldn’t be allowed to write about. But here I am, writing about suicide and euthanasia. Before I carry on I would like to apologize to the politically correct brigade, the moralists, theists, the sensitive, the naive, etc. This is my opinion and views on the matter and right or wrong I am entitled to them. So here it goes: I am pro choice, pro suicide and pro euthanasia.

I didn’t just wake up one day thinking about these issues. I have thought about them for long and hard but today I read, and above all I listened to what an acquaintance of mine had to say about her debilitating, painful, terminal illness SMA (spinal muscular atrophy)

I agree with her that in her case like in the case of all those who have such a debilitating illnesses, euthanasia should be allowed. I believe if a person is in a perfectly sound state of mind they should be allowed such wish to be put  in a legal document and have their final wish carried out by a specially trained nurse/doctor at a secure and safe place. I also think that apart from trained nurses/doctors, members of the immediate family or close circle of friends, if in total agreement and having gone through the necessary training and counseling should also be allowed to do it. I mean, I would have thought that most people would rather die in their own homes than in a sterile clinic/hospital and that a fair few would rather have a relative or close friend be the one to help them in their last and final step.

There should be some strict regulations in place though. I mean, those who are terminal should be protected from the unscrupulous and the down right evil people of this world who would, without a shadow of a doubt try and take advantage of the situation. We would need to make sure that it was 100% the wish of the dying person first of all and that they were of sound mind at the time of writing their wishes. Also, there should be severe punishment to those who are found performing unwanted or unrequited euthanasia. Damn, if it’s unwanted/unrequited it’s nothing more than murder.

As for regulations and punishment of those who unlawfully perform euthanasia, this should be the only time the state should have any say in the matter. I strongly believe that it should be left to doctors, the patient and the family to decide on when and how. If the state is allowed to interfere with this, there is a distinct possibility that some paper pushing fat cat at the top would “bonk off” a few people against their wishes just so he/she could meet targets and figures.

Now, as for suicide, euthanasia IS assisted suicide. I don’t see much difference between the two. Just because someone is fit and healthy  from the perspective of those looking in it doesn’t mean to say that that person is fit and healthy. That is the main problem and lack of understanding surrounding mental health issues. Most people still don’t understand that just because they can’t see an illness (no broken bones, heart attacks etc) that the sufferer of a mental illness is just selfish for committing suicide. Sometimes the mental pain, the anguish the torture is so much, so unbearable that there is no other way out.

Sure, it is sad to see/hear of suicide but it is equally as sad in the case of euthanasia. One could actually argue that euthanasia is a cop-out (I don’t think it is but the argument IS valid).

In the case of my acquaintance, her body is “broken”. In my case (for argument sake) my mind/spirit are “broken”. If/when her body hurts, drugs can easy that pain. Morphine is almost immediate relief. If/when my mind causes me unbearable pain and suffering  there are no drugs to easy that unless one takes anti-depressants or anti-psychotics for weeks/months on end. She is a prisoner of her body. I am a prisoner of my mind. Who suffers more? Who has more rights to live or die?

I know I have now opened a new can of worms: if a person has mental health issues, is that person in their right mind to decide if suicide is their best option? Isn’t the feeling of loss, emptiness and ultimately  suicide part and parcel of many common mental illnesses? Who can guarantee that a person with a terminal illness such as SMA, at the time of writing their final wishes isn’t depressed? I suppose these are the questions which make this an almost impossible issue to address and legislate.

Updated March 09 – I now believe the “provisional green light”, which means that a Swiss physician would be ready to write the prescription for the lethal drug, should be made available to those who want it. That alone should reduce the number of suicides because simply knowing that there is an emergency exit available, should they need it, is so comforting that they have a good chance of living until their life’s natural end

* I would like to thank my acquaintance, who shall remain unnamed, for being so open and brave.

** To find out more about SMA got to http://www.myspace.com/worldofsmartys

***Article posted at health.demo-research.com

Tweeting twat – Trent Reznor

This is the beginning of what was to become a major saga…. Acquaint yourselves with what I describe as must read blogs on how a celeb use/abuse of power and how they manipulate media/fans. The cyber bullying & slagging off anyone who doesnt happen to have a brown nose. A step by step of how a once “cool guy” became allianated & out of touch with everyday normal folk and the predictable downward spiral …

Enough bs from you Mr!

The following 3 blogs are by Fred Garrett

This is the first & original blog

(UPDATED!) Trent Reznor aka @trent_reznor and his power…)

Then our “hero” went off on one again and this time his target was me

Trent Reznor aka @trent_reznor goes on the attack again this time AndreaUrbanFox

Following his cyber bullying winning streak, our “hero” decides to con fans out of backstage passes, then more cyber bullying and then Fred simply had enough of this “champ`s” bullshit and delivered a decisive blow with the following blog:

Follow up story of Trent Reznor aka @trent_reznor and his power

Following the masses of hate mail/comments from demented fans, Fred posted this:

Trent Reznor, #Eric and his fan base not reading what I wrote

And this story is far from over…….Our overweight, sweaty incoherant “champ” will no doubt provide us with lots more to blog about. Watch this space……

Andrea

Demented Fuk